Thu, 06/10/2010 - 23:43
Every day is a roller~coaster of emotion, turmoil, high stress, as well as many other bipolar symptoms and side affects. I never realized how tightly intertwined they all become.
I always thought I could go this alone. Keep my secrets locked inside, let people just think I was a "cranky" person. However it has all become so much more. Have you ever woken up miserable, and gone to bed the same way? Now try doing it for weeks on-end.
I was on medicine for about 15 years. I was treated for depression. OK, whos depressed for 15 years!!! lol
I took myeslf off of my medication about 5 weeks ago and now am in full observance of this disease, and so is my family. I guess it took this bold step to actually realize how severe my case is.
Can anyone relate to my current position? I know medication is key, but ive been on Prozac for so many years with very often feeling like I was on nothing. What's new out there, what can help me to achieve some peace in my mind, body, and sole.
I invite all to respond.
Thank you
RJ
Fill the emptiness with love and positivity. However you do it. Hug those close to you a little longer. Don't be afraid to tell someone you care about that you need their support. Surround yourself with friends and family that won't judge or belittle you. Often times those who don't have a mental illness don't understand the severity. They may not treat it as the evil demon that you know it is. It can often make others uncomfortable or afraid, in turn making a depressed time even harder. Having a mental illness is not a choice, just as someone would not choose to get cancer. You are not a freak and you did not ask to be treated as so. You have to be your own inner champion often fighting those demons away with the seemingly last threads of hope. Open your mind to the positives and don't let the negatives take their places. There is beauty and love in many things and people. You just have to open up to it.
I have Rapid Cycling Bipolar and have dealt with it most of my life. I hope these words, easier said than done can comfort someone without hope. I have been down all the dark roads and back too many times to count. Any hope that I find, I do my very best to allow it to flourish and not fade. In the light there are friends, family, love and beauty. Don't hide in the darkness!
"Love is my religion"- Ziggy Marley